I Fall, Again

I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster whenever you are near.
You are kind.
You say nice things.
You treat me like a lady.
You make me feel special.
But then suddenly things change.
You are still kind.
You still say nice things.
You still treat me like a lady.
But somehow I don't feel special anymore.
And I really don't know what to do.

I feel like I am crawling out of an abyss.
Only every time I almost reach the top,
Someone comes along and stomps on my fingers.
And I fall.
Again.

I want to run and hide where no one will ever find me.
I want to shout at the top of my voice for the world to hear,
"I love you".
But then I fall.
Again.

And I wonder if I'll ever overcome this feeling
that has me falling.
Rising and Falling like a roller coaster.
I can't get off.
It never stops.
Until I fall
for the last time.

copywrited by Stephanie March 1988