I'm A Horrible Blogger
No. Really. I am.
I can admit that I do not give near as much attention to contributing to my own blog as I ought to. The whole purpose of starting it was to give an easy method for friends and family from far off to keep up with us, find out what is on our mind (ok my mind since the kids don't blog) and give me some room to brag and/or vent from time to time. But I even missed blogging about the kids' birthdays this year.
It's not like I didn't think about it. I did. Really. Right about the time I was clicking on other blogs and reading about all kinds of people, places, pets, miracles, sadness and politics. And I was too lazy to comment on most of those blogs as well. I'm sorry to all of those folks checking their stat counters and wondering who the weirdo is who keeps popping in, stalking them and contributing nothing. It's just that you've said it all so well and ... ummm no. No excuses. How about just "I'll try and do better"?
In the meantime, life is life - same stuff most days, improving stuff others and every once in awhile a stumbling block but nothing that's been earth shattering (does getting new teeth count as earth shattering?).
Oh and we're extremely excited. We discovered and applied for a community garden. We are sooooooooooo jazzed about having the opportunity to grow food. Good food. The kind of food you don't get a whole lot of on a tiny grocery budget. And the kicker - for the reasonable price of $10 for the ENTIRE summer and a contribution of 5 hours of sweat equity into the garden as a whole (not just our plot) we get 400 square feet of tilled soil, access to seeds and plants (although we may have to buy a few of our own if we are "picky", water, compost, organic pest methods, and tools. I don't think I can even buy seeds for $10. And I certainly know that my thumb is green enough to produce at least $10 worth of produce for my family. (we won't talk about how I kill houseplants) Sitting down with the list of space do's and don'ts for various veggies and graphing things out, we may just elect to have 2 spaces... 800 sq feet for $20. Oh and another little kicker - it's on my way to and from work. When I step out my door and walk over the little knoll, the garden is 1/2 block away... as in 1/2 block from home on my 1/2 mile walk to and from work. I won't even have excuses about why I can't tend it.
OK, so besides the garden, we're also excited about the new crab additions to the family. Boss-E, Tine-E and Sweet-E have all "expired" in some way over the past 2 years. However, our oldest crabs Shell-E and Journ-E have found it in their hearts to welcome 2 smaller critters to the crabitat: Rock-E and Teen-E [have you noticed the E theme yet? - so far all of the names have suited their personalities, size or physical appearance of their favorite shell. Cross your fingers the names continue to be easy since we intend to stay with this for quite some time.]
I'll put some kid updates in a separate posting so they aren't mired in with the self flagilation of my blogging habits.
Thanks for continuing to stop by and lurk (just like I do). It means a great deal and I hope you're all doing well.
2 comments:
The garden sounds amazing! My dh was just commenting last week that we should plant a garden (which made me laugh since we are still in a drought and have major water restrictions!). Thanks for visiting my blog and leaving some encouraging words. I noticed you have a 15 year rememberance...does is ever get any less painful?
S,
Actually, there are 4 losses to be remembered but I didn't put up widgets for all of them, instead I focus on the children who survived past the first trimester. HOWEVER, I fully recognize that loss at any stage of gestation is loss and everyone needs to remember it in their own way. My first loss was more than 16 years ago. The most recent loss was only 3 years ago.
Eventually it gets to be less painful. I'm sure that the blessing of children after loss has helped to dull the pain somewhat. Family activities and holidays don't seem as empty in the last 12 years. But the anniversary of Rachel's birth hits hard every year. Sometimes I think I'm doing alright and then the smallest thing will bring back all of the raw emotion of that day and the days that followed.
You never forget the children you lost - or the hope of the children you've lost. You never stop loving and having dreams. But eventually you find a way to cope and before you know it, one day turns into a week, turns into a month turns into 15 years.
I wish for you the best of outcomes with your current pregancy. I know that you are sitting on major pins and needles and fearing to breathe. My best [thoroughly unsolicited advice] is to try and find something each day that you can appreciate about your current pregnancy. Keep a journal of all the good things. Don't be afraid to admit the fears but balance it with the positives. And NEVER be afraid to reach out for love and support. You DO NOT have to be strong 100% of the time. We're here for you - even if all we can do is listen.
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